Channelling my energy into this blog

This is the first of many posts for sure in an effort to track my weight loss with a more personal touch. Forgive me for the diarrhea of the brain that is about to flow thru my fingers and onto the keyboard now but i am just trying to get a few ideas out there to get myself going with this.

I've been combatting my weight it seems to me since i was a kid, because i was never quite as thin as friends or the "popular kids" at school. And now looking back, i wish i was as healthy as i was then now.

Other really started noticing my weight gain during college when i was on my own. Food is my comfort when my family is not around. That is something that has to change immediately!!

Once i was pregnant and a stay at home mom, i was out of control. Now that i have my daughter, i need to really shed this weight that has not crept on, yet literally smothered me over the last 10 years.

Prior to starting Weight Watchers again, i weighed in at the heaviest ever: 303 lbs. I couldn't believe that i had finally reached such a grime milestone. I immediately started using the huge blank canvas of a yard as my gym (after all, membership is a mere mortgage payment each month, so if i thought of the $XXXX we pay in mortgage each month compared to a gym membership, i should be working out a ton in my yard to get my money's worth, eh?) Cutting a new path thru our yard i was able to lose 5 lbs. Shortly after, i realised that i couldn't do this on my own and i went back to Weight Watchers. I've been working WW for 2.5 years now and i have successfully lost 10 pounds with them and even tho i keep playing with a few pounds here and there, i've been able to keep my 15 lbs off. However, i do have a lot more than that to lose.
"A LOT" being the operative word--more like 110 pounds.

I will be using this medium to keep my fingers out of the kitchen, to combat boredum which leads to eating, set milestones, wax eloquint on all that mind trickery and self depricating talk, and to track my progressed and regresses as it goes.

This is a lifestyle change, and as much as i hate change, this is THEE MOST IMPORTANT THING I WILL DO IN MY LIFE (or at least i believe it is.) (Note: it is also the most self serving thing i will do--as my true reasons for doing this are selfish--i want more babies, i want to be around to see my children's children, i want to celebrate my 50th annv with my husband, i don't want to died before my parents do, and i want to walk into a store/mall/on the street and not feel like people are judging me because i think they are thinking "wow, she'd be so pretty if she didn't weigh the same as a baby hippo.")

As usual, my little distraction (aka my daughter) is talking and i can't continue to put a thought together. Don't get me wrong, i love my little distraction, but it's challenging to try to put yourself ahead of your child.

There will definitely be more later!


Last weigh in: 288.2
Last exercise: this morning, in the garden, for 30 minutes
Ingested:
2 cups of coffee with 1/2:1/2
1.5 cups Kashi Go Lean with 1 c milk